Tired

Not like normal tired.
Not like I just need to sleep in tired.
Not like I need some wine or a pedicure or a weekend away.
Bone tired, unshakable tired, mentally overloaded tired.

Tired of shouldering so much responsibility by default.
Tired of trying to fix problems that aren't mine.
Tired of being a non-reciprocal sounding board.

Tired of "self-care" solutions that don't solve anything.
Tired of being told I just need to relax and not stress so much.
Tired of being talked at.

Tired of tiptoeing around the feelings of those who don't care about mine.
Tired of negotiations.
Tired of accommodating.

Tired of being a woman sometimes.
Tired of having to see my sisters bare their souls just to try to earn respect and validation.
Tired of being told how to be a woman.

Tired of worrying.
Tired of being afraid.
Tired of being fucking tired.

Ready for release, renewal, rebirth, reclaiming, renovation.
Ready to leave old wounds in the past.
Ready for new adventures.